This is more of a personal philosophical question, but bear with me. So, I have been trying to study K-theory, but the study has been more focused on studying category theory. It has been two weeks of consistent reading, lecture videos and engaging in practice problems. At this point, I'm seeing good improvement on my side, I understand all the formal things, etc. But I'm still hit with the fundamental question: To what end?
This same question hit me with module theory. As I was reading a course syllabus about modules, the aim of the class is to build modules from other modules, and, analogously, now I figure that my aim is to build categories from other categories--as these theories seem to be interested in building such and such from other such and such. With that, I am at least pacified with the aim.
Still though, even reflecting on passing the most basic math course on the first year calculus series, I still do not know what to do with an integral. Don't get me wrong, I know a decent deal of integration--I know a good deal of identities and could solve a challenging one from some math competitions--but I do not know my aim with it--not like I was intending to study analysis or anything.
In sum, I guess what this post is asking: Do any of you have an aim when you start to study a subject?
By the way, I'm not stopping with my study, but I want to know if this "malaise" happens to any of you.